You have been my hardest lessons and my greatest teacher

You have broken me down and broken me through

You are why I fear losing the people around me and the reason I love the people around me so deeply

You are the reason I want to hide under my covers for days, and you are what wakes me in the morning with a desire to live

You have turned joy into darkness and darkness into light

You have sent me down spirals that have felt unbearable and helped me grow in ways I never imagined possible

You cause my heart to ache for the people I have lost and you have allowed me to open my heart to life’s uncertainties

You have caused me to feel lost in this world and helped me to find myself when I needed it the most

You didn’t come into my life to be understood, you came into my life to be felt and I’m learning to open to that when I want to close and when the pain comes, I am learning to choose love over and over again because at your core, that is what you are

You are love

You are grief